Rolling.
/Monday, May 31, 2010
/ 3:41 AM
PRINCE OF PERSIA ! ♥♥♥
GREAT MOVIE , GUYS WATCH IT!
IT'S AWEEESOMMMMMMEEE :DDDDDDD
anyways, training was kinda tough but survived it ^^
Then had lunch with teammates after that :)
waited for izzu and syahirran to come then bought tickets to movie :)
Arcade in between while waiting for them.
Tmr's trng is gym :)
Up till now, failed to do any homework -.-'
MOTIVATIONS!!! I NEED YOU!
at the moment, trying to gather people to 6.7 class outing!
SHYTTY, everyone's responding so slowly -.-'
haiz, hope this event can take place la!!
COME ON GUYS, go for this first time and the last!!!
:) TAKECARES
/Sunday, May 30, 2010
/ 7:17 AM
I JUST WANT ALITTLE MORE ATTENTION FROM YOU GUYS,
I JUST WANT TO BE TREATED LIKE HOW YOU GUYS TREAT THE REST,
I JUST WANT TO BE INCLUDED,
I JUST WANT TO BE BOTHERED BY YOU ALL,
I JUST WANT TO BE HELPFUL,
I JUST WANT TO BE RELIABLE,
I JUST WANT TO BE THE PERSON THAT WHEN YOU GUYS ARE SAD, I AM ABLE TO CHEER YOU GUYS UP,
I JUST WANT TO BE THE PERSON WHO WILL SIT DOWN AND LISTEN TO YOU GUYS WHEN YOU ARE SAD,
I JUST WANT TO BE SOMEONE YOU GUYS TRUST AND WILL SHARE YOUR THOUGHS WITH ME,
I JUST WANT TO BE PART OF YOUR LIFE,
I JUST WANT TO BE LIKE THEM,SOMEONE WHO IS ALWAYS INVITED TO JOIN YOU GUYS WHEN YOU ALL GOING TO HAVE FUN OR CONVERSATION,
I JUST WANT TO BE A FREN WHO YOU GUYS TREASURED, AND NOT TAKE ME WHENEVER YOU WANT, AND LEAVE ME WHENEVER YOU DONT NEED.
I really don't want to be left out..Eventhough i know that,
no one will understand, no one will bother about me, no one will include me,
I am boring,
I am not-entertaining,
I am not funny enough,
I am not the fren whom you expects,
I am not good enough,
I am just some side frens,
I am someone whom you all will find troublesome,
whom you all find me extra,odd one out,
whom you all dunlike ,
Someone who is always out of the picture,
I am sorry for not being as good as you expected...
I did tried,
I tried so hard so that i could stand out and be seen by you all,
but all this goes to waste,
and i am never seen by you all,
probably i am just a small bug ,
whom you all says hi and bye and nothingmore...
I hate myself, why can't I be born like you all?
I don't understand, no one understands me too.
I am just trying to be happy when i am actually sad inside,
but you guys dont see it.
When i needed someone there, i got to ask and request for it.
No one bothers , No one cares...
I am sad, no one is there...
When you guys are sad or hurt, 100% someone is there for you all..
I am so envy why can't I be like you all ..
You guys have people,frens who love you so much till they see you,
They hug you,
they welcome you even its just checking in,
They jio you downstairs to talk tgt...
Watching you guys having all this opportunities, i am really happy :)
I thought it might be happier if i could be like one of you, but god didnt make me into someone like you all...
Always at the side watching you guys smile and laughing, just like watching others life...
How I wish I could be like one of you ...
I am just so boring and not interesting at all,
I try to make people happy, but it will only waste my efforts.
cause i am always the only one laughing,
and you guys dao me...
I always tell myself : It's okay, cause you are not born to be interesting....just get over it, but it accumulates so much so that it hurt inside. )':
Even if its just one more person who is willing to include me, I am happy enough :)
Becos at least i know someone is there for me :)
YEAH, no one will probably read it,
cause its like real boring and doesn;t concern them,
but at least i finally wrote it out...
feels better now, and understand that i am not born to be like you guys :)
// 4:27 AM
I am lost for directions, but i know no one bothers :)
Its okay,nvrmind coz i am born like this, not deserving the good stuff ..
THANKS SO MUCH WENYI,
for keeping me occupied today! LUNCH at kfc then snack and slack :P
HAHA come to my home, say want do homework...
in the end we were on facebook introducing frens to each other!
:P hehehehhes waste time lerh
Tmrw will be even fun!
Going movie after hard core training:)
YAY!
Till then, got to rush homework !
BYE PEEPOS :)
/Saturday, May 29, 2010
/ 9:14 PM
BLAH. BLAH. BLAH. ☻Nah. Nah. Nah. ☺YO PEOPLES! WAS BACK HOME FROM WEDDING DINNER AT 12am :)
EPIC WONDERFUL LAH, HHAHAHAH !
The food wasdamn nice , ate alot!
I filled my stomach with 3 bowls of sharkfins , I AM SO SORRY SHARKS!
^︵^ BLEHHHH... i ate the leftovers of it, not i greedy!
3 people include my mama, didnt attend so got extra food mah ):
shouldnt waste food k!
Yupp took quite alot of photos :)
Then they give us poker cards for souvenirs :)
The designs are real cute and sweet, post up some other days ^^
Anw, the dishes are :
5 combinations cold dish
shark fin
deep fried roasted chicken
mushroom with vege
herbal prawns
Seabass ( MR FISH )
Yi mian yellow noodles
Yam paste
Ph btw, inside joke about my ah ma :O
she is old, blur and funny!
HAHA why?
Cousins were saying that the poker card box on the outside look like chocolate's being contain inside.. yeah, joke is later when she go home she put it into the fridge and ....
UHHHH you know what i mean right :P
WTF, hahah she might be blur but not THAT BLUR O.O
anyways, took taxi home cost around $ 15.40
Reach home, first thing wash up and BED TIME!
:D
PICTURES ARE UPLOADED IN FB , CHECK IT IF YOU WANT :)
// 12:59 AM
ALL LINED UP. FINALLY GOT MY WHOLE OF NEXT WEEK OCCUPIED
ツMonday: Going lunch and movies after training with some guys from sprinters group and some people from LongD group
ツTuesday: Going out with shuet to Bishan after training
ツWednesday: Training
Thursday: Maybe going out with N, CY, JN after training
ツFriday: Having major outing with longD gals only at marina barage
ツSat: Homework
ツSun: Homework
ツMama coming home on next tuesday, heard she bought alot of stuff though...
Lots of mine i guess, haha still rmb i wrote her a long list of things to buy :p
Yeah MISS HER SO MUCH!
Later going cousin's wedding dinner,
SIAN i miss out alot if fun today coz of this wedding thing...
Could have gone out with dion and jonP,
if not go Jayne's bday party,
if not go out with classmate O.O
Just wanna thanks these people for keeping me entertain this morning:
Liyan , Izzu and Jonp.
Without you guys msg me, i would have bored to death at cousin house -.-"
Up till now, still hasn't done any homework!
I really dunwant get in trouble when school re-opens..
OKAYS!
Short post on this bug :
Seriously, stop your stalking and what ever shyt.
Cause ___ won't appreciate what u have been doing for ___?
Or maybe ___ doesn't even care lorh..
Stop wasting your time, you are not doing well lorh.
Just fyi, please focus and buck up with wadever you are doing,
Let ____ off, ___ really don't want any more interference from you.
___ actaully finds you irritating, to be kind, I say ___ doesn't want so much attention from you.
So just keep away for a moment, please.
like that those people you involve in wont be troubled.
YEAH, i am not talking about you, IS YOU . get it?
hahah WADEVER .
Sorry if u find this offensive or mean,
but i have to say this out on behalf for the victim :)
ONE STEP BACK EACH, FAIR ENOUGH !
I been msging ____ these few days, and ___ sent me around 600plus msgs?
HAHA ___ fone bill burst like free, yeah anw its free msg so its okay^^
ALOT OF BLANKS, don't be like banana(syafiqah),
thought it was cloze passage...... LOL! hhaha dont understand?
nvmind, its within us only :)
Alrights, post up pics took tmrw! hope i get to take some pics during wedding :D
takecares peeeeepos!
// 12:46 AM
I WISH I MIGHT, I WISH I COULD,
BUT I'M STILL LOVING YOU, I miss you.
/Friday, May 28, 2010
/ 5:54 PM
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
// 12:18 AM
PEOPLE. I AM SUPER BORED RIGHT NOW ):
HOLIDAYS JUST SUCK WHEN YOU PLAN OUT EVERYTHING,
BUT IT DIDNT GO AS PLAN ):
SERIOUSLY I AM DYING TO GO OUT! AND BE CRAZY!
HAVE FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN !!!!!!!!!!
DYING AND DESPERATE LAH,
EVERYONE LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY TODAY ):
I MEAN ITS GOOD LAH, but mama's still at china!
HOMEWORKS, ARE LIKE THE FLYERS GIVEN OUT IN THE SHOPPING CENTRE!
SUPPOSE TO DO HOMEWORK, BUT I AM STUCK AT COM!
FML ,
SO DAMN BORED!
/Thursday, May 27, 2010
/ 8:08 PM
I ONCE LOVE YOU, THEN I MEET YOU,
THEN I FALL FOR YOU,
BUT YOU BREAK ME,
I AM LOST,
YOU MADE ME CRY HARD,
SO HARD UNTIL I CANT FORGET YOU,
THEN I CONTINUE WAITING,
EVENTHOUGH IT HURTS,
BUT I HANG ON,
TEARS WAS SHED FOR YOU,
BUT YOU JUST CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING,
THEN I MEET YOU,
BUT I AM SCARED TO LOVE YOU,
CAUSE I'VE BEEN BROKEN,
SCARED YOU WOULD BREAK ME LIKE BEFORE.... ....
I STILL LOVE YOU, BUT I LIKE HIM .
// 8:03 AM
SCARED. of the worldAFRAID. you'll leave me WORRIED. I'll might fall, but you're not thereUPSET. cause i'm alone myselfSTAY WITH ME, DON'T LEAVE ME BEHIND ):
// 7:37 AM
IT'S TOUGH BUT I'VE SURVIVED IT THROUGH....
GONNA PLAY HARD , AND ENJOY TO THE FULLEST
♥♥♥ ALL THE TEST REVISION SCREWED ME UP,BUT LUCKY YOU ARE THERE TO GUIDE ME THROUGH,THANKS SO MUCH :)
HAHAHA after so long,
FIRST TIME PEAK IN CLASS FOR
GEOG!Chinese finally shown improvements, got 59/70 !Maths from FAIL to PASS ! GOT 60/100 !
The rest not sure yet :O
Training was hard, especially the
long run yesterday D:
Almost burnt me out ! 50mins run ,
GOING BEYOND OUR
LIMITS MANZ!
This morning intervals was shiok, its like a swift and its done :)
PASS few nights didnt sleep well, gonna POWERSLEEP these few nights♥
YEAH, SPAM MY TIME PACKING STUFF!
OUT OFFFFFF BORDING!!!!!
BAD NEWS, Justin and Jonathon is leaving us D: In 7weeks, Rachel's gonna leave us too )`:I dont understand why one after another, people are leaving ssp, I WISH THEY COULD STAY.
): DISAPPOINTING, Cant they be any wiser and decide to stay?
But still, Wishing them all the best in their new routes out there yea :D
Another thing,
GONNA HAVE TRAINING FOR EVERYDAY NEXT TWO WEEKS!
ALL 8:30AM , SHYTTY I CANT SLEEP TILL VERY LATE ! =.=
GOT RID OF ANNE FRANK, MERCHANT OF VENICE TOOK THE PLACE!
IT'S SUPER OLD, WHY THEY LIKE TO PICK HISTORY STUFF FOR LIT!
IF NOT ALL THE SHAKESPEARS STUFF (N)
Wadever it is, JUST GONNA GIVE IT A BLAST AND FINISH IT!
WE HAD
SUFFER ENOUGH, IT'S TIME TO
PLAY HARD!
I HEART EVERYONE :)
/Saturday, May 22, 2010
/ 7:51 AM
OPEN HOUSE ♥ Left house at like 10:30am.Reach school at 11:30am, was 15mins late but didnt get any scolding! :P
Had BK for lunch, so long and finally fastfood!
Then start work at 12:45 with Lijia :)
This year role was Academic Tour guide, last year usher :)
Tourguide must talk alot, usher like just say move go here there only..
Yeah, shift went well,
then later helpout with usher in audi :)
Zhao at around 4pm then rush to east coast...
change mrt from red to yellow to green :0 sians!
Then meet dad before going E2
Had a great race, i like just jog the enitre 5km :P
but last part work harder :D
Over take adults ehhhh , HAHA
I so like open race people organize than competitive run like nationals track :)
Duhhh, so much stress & pressure for nats track!
Had a damn shiok run lah , got these two guy like same age as me keep like competing with me?
LOL! nah dont care lah :p
then ate dinner there, and went home .
Got a medal, A bag and some massage things.. and chocolate milk :)
SHIOK LAH!
anyways, what should i do tmrw?
Go sentosa?
or whole day study at home instead...
got alot of test next week though...
but i really nid break lah!
O.O shyty sia...
P.S wadever you are saying or doing behind me that is bad, I dont care coz i just want you..
I am the person who u think i am now, but u love me once ... Yeah you've been troubling me alot, I know i am like 'desperate', but i still have to say, no matter what it is, i wont give up, coz i dunwant to waste my effort on waiting for 6mths plus just for you , and not moving on, not doing well when u are actually doing well.. Look how dumb i am, but love is stupid and idoits, right? Yeah, always have been especially after u break up and wanted a patch... Right now, i just do what i have to do and at the same time, continue waiting... till I give up hope on you,completely.
/Friday, May 21, 2010
/ 6:53 AM
MY COM'S FINALLY REPAIRED ! :DDDDDsuper shiok!but then again, Sian lah,need to install and download everything from the beginning! ):takes up alot of time sehhh !
/Tuesday, May 18, 2010
/ 2:41 AM
DIFFERENT BUT SPECIAL (:There are many ways of looking at this picture....Some might think that the white flower among the other red flowers is :1. Different and Odd2. Special and Unique3. Totally out of picture4. Lonely and Extra 5. I dont give a damn to itMany many other ways of looking at it... ...According to how i am feeling now, its actually option 1,3,4...But one cant live life happy if he/she thinks negatively,so maybe by looking at the bright side of every situations,things might change and get better :D Around so many others , there are different groups of people:1. Always at the top of the chart2. It's there, It's not there, where is it?3. It's there, but we seldom gets involves with it4. It is there, but it seems as though it is invisible5. It doesn't really exist or play a big part in my lifeI would say that if you are in the range of option 1&2,please, dont take advantage of what you have,treasure what god has given you that you deserve.You are fortunate,everyone is,but since you get to own more than the res does,why dont you look around and see , there might be some people, ( who doesnt fits in no matter whr they go, who doesnt talk much, who is hardly noticeable, who is always lonely, who is always sulking instead of smiling) , why dont you walk up to them and open up their minds, so that they could feel that they are actually not known as the 'extras' in that area, and that someone is there to care for them? Maybe making one more, just one will do, it makes a difference out of your life:) Because you know that you are not the only one who is happy, your friends are happy too. HAHAH, it'll be better if someone could laugh with you rather than you laughing by yourself, right? The more the merrier :)The middle range :HMM, to me, no matter where you stand in the range,everyone is important, and that we should treat one another equally :)You have mix feelings, sometimes you might think that you are involve, and sometimes being left out. And you are doing it too!So what if you are not one of the popular ones, you are still yourself, the one and only you. no one shares the same characteristics as you, because god made each and everyone of us different and unique! same thing, just take every friend in your eye, dont leave some and take some like you're choosing gifts :) and for yourself, dont always think that becoz you are stuck in the middle, you are always changing roles , just like acting. Be yourself, i'm sure you will get what you deserves someday:D ALWAYS stay happy, keep that smile going!Left-out's:I understand this, totally man!HAHAHAHA, people always dont see that you are actually being left alone, they would always think that you are more fortuante than them, when it's actually the opposite :O yeah, being alone doesnt feels good, that feeling sucks... And it might stays with you forever, if you dont change your way of thinking and the way you present yourself to others. how com being left alone? It be might:Because they dont like your attititude? ( DISLIKE)Because they think that you are boring? (Not interesting people, bo entertainment)Because they just dont want you to be there? (Need to say some stuff that you shouldnt know at all)Because they just want to stay in their group(Is your problem,as long i'm save,good)It's better if you really start changing the way you think and the way you look at things... At a situation, there is always positive and negative ... Its obvious, if you are in these range, high chance you would look at it in the negative way. Come on, why deceive or understimate yourself? you are also part of this wolrd you live in, if not god wouldnt have made you right? why would he want to create you? Think about it, he is actually testing you, every others, and thats why he made us differently! If you could change your life, from the dark to the bright, YOU SUCCEED :D If you can't, please, JUST TRY TO! you wouldnt want to live your life in sorrow, emotional, sad and unhappy right? No one does, so try to fit yourself in,sometimes you failed to join is actually becoz of how you think of others about how they will lookat you, how they would treat you. Seriously,dont think so much, JUST BE YOURSELF! Be the person, who is who you are, dont fake in front others, be true, to yourself and them :D And talk more,share your ideas,share your emotionals with them, bond with them, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, ALWAYS STAYS HAPPY!there are days where you might feel down and will find it hard to smile,Its okay, you have the rights to say it to your frens, dont be afraid, just speak up! I'm sure there will be someone who is kind enough to be your listening ears:) BACK TO THE FLOWER,IT MIGHT BE DIFFERENT COLOR OR OTHER WAYS FROM THE REST,TO ME, IT WILL ALWAYS BE THE SPECIAL ONE, EQUALLY IMPORTANT WITH THE REST,ALWAYS EXIST FOR ITS OWN REASON, THE ONE WHO I AM RIGHT NOW:) I DONT MIND IF I AM DIFFERENT FROM THEM, BECOS THAT'S WHAT MAKES ME SPECIAL AND UNIQUE, THE ONE AND ONLY ME ^^ same concept apply to the rest of people... .... ...Hope you find this useful, and would apply this in your daily life :D
/Sunday, May 16, 2010
/ 2:53 AM
Sorry guys,my laptop is still under repair... Won't be able to post or anything);
I'll be M.I.A for the time being..
Just some quick updates lah:
simply my life is just getting from bad to worse);
results suck like one kind,
I just don't understand why I don't have the mood to study !
F0000000K !
I really nid help from people...
But my class people... They like have something against me or wadever it is...
They just ignore what I say...
I dunno why I am still living in this world ..
Since god made me ,
to a person who is always being ignored,
always in a position who is EXTRA no matter where I go,
I am always watching others,
seeing them living life happily,
they got what they want,
they got their frens...
Who will wait for them no matter how late they are..
In class, in dinning, in room....
Always the same, left out in the picture..
I just don't understand, since my life is in a role where I can only watch others and cannot be like them, what's the point if having me around in this world..
I will only take up the spaces here...
Sorry, I just cannot keep this in my heart anymore...
I shall stop all this...
And try to be the happy me, or now...
Okays just have to focus in my studies and sports!
Die also must do well for next module!
I made up my mind, to keep to myself since no one wants to talk to me, no one gives a damn to me,no difference whether if I am around, I just live in my own world.. Maybe that's the best decision I made... Coz even Nick don't give me another chance to be back with him, I have no rights to say anything about him.. All this time, I know I am a loner.
Much better after saying this out, but not enough to satisfy myself... Sign, I am just so pathetic );
/Wednesday, May 12, 2010
/ 8:16 AM
OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE ( OBS )4TH MAY - 8TH MAY 4th may 2010 :
Left school at 8 plus to head for punggol jetty.
Then take boat to Pulau Ubin , campsite one of OBS.
Debrief and we set off to our own groups ,
BO SENG!
Tour around the place and did our first activity:
untangle the handchain :)
yeah this how it goes :
we have to chain up our hands cris cross and then untangle it without letting go of hands,
target was 20 mins , but meet with troubles and ends up 35mins (:
not bad lah, sweating like one kind dong!
Then we had lunch at cook house ( meat roll,chicken wing,rice,veggs)
After lunch, put our things in store an pitch tents at one area near the coast.
Play some team challenge with group SUI SEN !
procedures:
TEAM SKII, ( 8 ppl on two planks,move plank with leg and hand strength to the line )
SKIPPING TGT FOR 3 TIMES,
and HOLA HOOP PASSING . ( hold hands, and pass without letting the hoop drop.)
had briefing and then head for dinner :)
Cook our own dinner for the first night :D
Bathe and night debrief/reflections
Had supper RED BEAN SOUP!
Lights out ! tent in with kim bev and marissa ^^
5th MAY 2010 :
Wake up at 5 am, unpitch tent and wash up.
Then Morning TP :) stretches and exercises.
Play game: code of color ( they say a colour, and we have to go to the person wearing a shirt or shoes wth that color )
Had breakfast : ( i spam the ovaltine :P )
Bee hoon and sausage !
prepare stuff and equpiments for kayaking.
we learnt how to capsize the boat and get save from it :)
GUESS WHAT,
ITS JELLY FISH SEASON!
around you all jelly fish lah, not cool sia.
return to campsite, change into dry clothes.
took helmets and harnest for belaying session.
afterwards, went back to store to pack stuff for 2 nites camp out !
Track to campsite 2 ( around 30mins)
Change up and pich tent at a grass patch area :)
Cook our own dinner,
cambell mushroom soup, maggie! YUM , these food at that time was like heaven :)
Clean up the place and wash up,
night debrief and lights out :)
FREAK, kena mosquito bite here there,
damn hot also, like oven lah , didnt sleep well );
Gotto go sleep now,
continue on day 3 and 4 and 5 tmrw maybe :)
nites peeps,
its been a long day :)
RESTWELL!
// 8:07 AM
HEYYY HOOOOO!SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK TTM YO :DDDFIRST THE LEARNING JOURNEY,WENT TO NATIONAL MUSEUM :)HAD FUNN FUNN FUNN! Complete all the activity worksheet (4) .....Heard that the roof top got people commit suicide last time,now the staircase up is blocked ):yeah snack and went back to school...wash up and get ready for another epic moment!HOUSE ACTIVITY !YELLOW YELLOW FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!For jumping sack race we got 6th (: Though we got last but had great time LMAO! :p
Then for pingpong ball on spoon we got 3 rd :)overall didnt get top 3,but everyone did well! :)3 CHEEERS! 8PTHEN HAD GREAT SUPPER!FRUIT TARTS!ICE CREAM SWENSENS CAKE!CREAM PUFF!CURRY PUFF!DRINKS!AND GOODIES!VERY FATTERNING BUT ITS OKAY,GONNA HAVE MORNING TRNG TMRW MRNG AND AFTERNOON =.=all fats by then will be converted i guess , HHAHAHAHA!AWESOMMMMMME DAYYYY!
/Sunday, May 9, 2010
/ 7:42 AM
PEOPLE!
BACK FROM OBS,FINALLY :DDDD and thankgodness, i can use com at room:)
but my laptop still under repair ):
okay there's alot to post about but till now,
just gonna sayy:
OBS ,I MISS YOU DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN MUCH! BO SENG TTM YO!SUI SENG ALL THE WAYYY TOO!:) WILL UPDAE ASAP
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